The Grass is always greener on the other side

All of us, at some point in our lives, we have felt that the grass is greener on the other side of the fence, which means we have envied other peoples' lives. We believe that having what someone else has will make us happy, until we experience the unexpected negative results of envy. Jot down your feeling about envy. Have you ever seen or felt its negative effects?

Envy is a poisonous vine, snagging and sprawling, which will eventually wrap people hardly to stifle. I'm not a saint; I'm merely an imperfect humankind created by Eve and Adam. I have to admit that I do envy people, but not their lives. I have a healthy body, perfect family, and parents who love me so much that they always accompany and encourage me through difficulties. Compare to skinny African children, I have nothing to complain. However, I once envied my brother. When I learned piano in 4th grade, my brother learned it in 2nd grade and bragged that he would become more skillful than I do eventually. When I was studying hardly, he was always playing his computer games cheerfully. When I was worrying about my grades, he always spent leisure for favorite cartoons. When I transferred to PAS, I worried about my poor vocabularies and reading ability, he didn't have to concern about his staying-same grades because he had two more years than I do. It was unfair for me as an elder sister. I imagined that what will happen if my mom gave birth to my brother first? I hate my jealousy  occupies in my mind and distracts me from homework. I can't really study when I am emotional. Therefore, I ponder for awhile and get a great conclusion. Although I envy my brother, I realize that he envies me, too. He is satisfied to be a younger brother because he can be willful and parents will draw attention on him (that's what I do when I was young) However, he detests people to compare my grades to those of his, especially my father. Once a person asked my brother: "Why does your sister get good grades but you are.....opposite, still stays in ESL?" It was a stupid question. This question definitely hurt my brother's heart and self-confidence. It's so ironic when people are jealous of people in same direction. However, whenever I envy my brother, I learn to comfort myself that I am learning while he's wasting time. I comfort myself that I will practice playing the piano harder so he won't surpass me. I learn to control my jealousy because it will wrap myself in a stuffy frame and stifle me. I learn to satisfy and appreciate things that I own. In conclusion, I realize that envy is a two-way vine. When you feel "the grass is always greener on the other side", you don't appreciate what you own until you lost it. Therefore, don't worry about the grass so much, because you may find  beautiful blossoms smiling on your side.